Happy November 1st! The time of the year when the veil between the worlds is thin.

Time for me to reinvigorate this blog!!


Lots have happened since my last entry 10 months ago, but I'll fast forward to last month.


The first part of October was fantastic and I continue to feel aligned and supported in my path.

Yoga teacher training is going so very well: improv yoga definitely pushed my edge;

the all day hip-opening workshop was beyond delicious.

Then wham! Exactly 2 weeks ago. I felt the air completely knocked out of me.


What happened triggered one of my longest, most deeply head fears - DEATH!



When the sharp intake of breath slices open your heart,

Tearing away newly formed scabs

And you’re left in a pool of pain and despair

Past, present, future...



As I wrote my morning pages the next day, I realized it is different this time around.

I had my first “real” astrological reading the day before,

and my astrologist asked that I write down

recurring behaviors, feelings and next to it the person they originated from.


It all became crystal clear.

Those feelings, the desperation

are not mine!!!


I have just internalized someone else’s fears, and thought they were mine.


How many of us carry around extra baggage that do not belong to us?


Days after this realization, I stumbled upon a dead grey fox on my morning walk/run.

She was magnificent!

My mind went immediately to fear, that it was some kind of omen.

I kept walking, praying for that beautiful fox.

I knew what a privilege it was for me to come across her and I felt at peace.



The incident is forcing or inviting me to live in the unknown.

Living in the “dark” frightens me, yet it is the unknown that makes life interesting and sparkly.


I’m still chewing on this one, but I love this quote from Byron Katie:

When you fall in love with the Unknown

You are free.


The concept of “falling in” demands a level of trust, to fall requires the loss of control.

To fall in love,

you have to have faith that love is there to catch you.


Entering the digital age...

posted Jan 10, 2016, 2:23 PM by Asia Morgenthaler

Layna
As I said on Facebook: New Year, New Inspirations! And this year I'm inspired to try new mediums and to find ways to spend more time creating. How can I make painting more portable? That's when I thought, well how about digital art? I carry my phone everywhere, so in the spirit of trying something new, I went to Google Play looking for a drawing/painting app. 

Autodesk's Sketchbook looks pretty good, but then I found Samsung's own Artecture Draw, Sketch, Paint. I was wowed! It is user friendly and the "undo" button is a lifesaver! Here's Layna, my very first digital creation. She is not done yet, someone (okay, some animal) is waiting to join her. But all in all, I'm quite thrilled. Tomorrow when I report for jury duty, I will be able to paint and create! It definitely makes waiting around all day a lot more enjoyable. 


Darkness and Light

posted Dec 20, 2015, 1:48 PM by Asia Morgenthaler   [ updated Dec 20, 2015, 6:40 PM ]

Darkness and Light

It's been one of those topsy-turvy, time-warpy kind of morning. I had to cut my morning run short so I can get to yoga on time, only to find I was 15 minutes early. As I stepped into the yoga studio, I noticed the lights were dimmed and holiday lights were strung on the ground. Lights glimmering in the darkness;  the whining and complaining in my head stopped, and I was able to take a deep breath and be completely present. My yoga teacher, Misha, talked about today being the day before Solstice and reminded us it is a about balance. Those who tend to focus on the light, can shift to welcome the dark; and vice versa. There is no judgement. It is a dance of grace, love, and harmony. 

Yesterday, we went to Nine Lives Foundation (a no-kill shelter) to see their kitties. I was looking for another female cat (Meow-tze passed away in February this year). I am a firm believer that the cat would pick me. Sure enough, this little guy (Trey) hopped on my lap. There must be over 100 kitties there, and this little guy and I connected. I told the shelter I will sleep on it and decide. I was looking for a reassurance, some signal, some message that this is the cat for me and my family.

As I was doing yoga, Trey popped into my head: Black and white; darkness and light; perfect harmony in this little guy. And I knew at that moment, I think I was holding warrior 2, in my heart I knew this is the guy I will bring home. Since we have a female cat at home already, he will bring the yang cat energy to our home. I'll keep that in mind as I introduce the two. ;)

I'm off to drop off paperwork for Trey now. 
I wish everyone a Blessed Winter Solstice! May your holiday season be filled with laughter, peace, love, and harmony.

Markers, moth and my Soul Work

posted Dec 2, 2015, 2:38 PM by Asia Morgenthaler   [ updated Dec 2, 2015, 3:10 PM ]

My muse told me to leave my acrylic paint at home and buy some markers to take to Maui. I picked up a set of Tombow Dual Brush Pens and a new sketchbook, the Leuchtturm1917. I’m a Moleskine fan, but somehow I’m supposed to break out of my comfort zone and try something new. Here's what I've got so far:

   marker1


I’d say markers are a lot less forgiving than acrylics, but then I used to say that about acrylic. The ink bled a bit on the paper, but not too bad, actually better than the Moleskine. The paper did crinkle. Just experimenting now and will do more.



Last night, this white moth visited our hotel room. Not sure why she flew all the way to the 11th floor, but there she was literally glowing in the night. I stood in awe. I have a moth tattooed on my back. I took a quick picture and she flew away. Yes, I'm listening!! The rest of my family decided to go to bed at 8:30pm, so I sat in the lanai alone, looking out into the ocean, listening to the waves, watching the stars, I started working on my Soul Work. And it kept flowing.


It is crystal clear to me that my soul work centers on Remothering; creating ohanas for women to support each other’s journey in healing our inner child. The image of the Feminine is an important component. Women must see themselves reflected. It is crucial for our inner child to feel seen by the Feminine, BY HER MOTHER. I truly believe the process of expressing ourselves creatively, by creating these images of the Feminine, we are not only tapping with a side of ourselves that are otherwise neglected, we are also creating a safe place or cradle of our inner child. And my soul work is to bring this to my community, to bring healing to those seeking it, so we can be whole, fully integrated. We can be who we truly are and share our gifts with our community.


I’m not sure what the markers have to do with my soul work. But that's how my muse works and I’m trusting and definitely listening as I continue this exploration. And more on the Cradle of Love as it merges. Love to you all.

My Muse Speaks...

posted Nov 18, 2015, 7:51 PM by Asia Morgenthaler   [ updated Dec 1, 2015, 9:12 PM ]

                                                                                                                                    November 18, 2015

inner illuminosity

This morning, I gave my muse the pen. I have been in a place of frustration, I’d say despair and hopelessness after the Paris shooting last Friday. When I heard Francois Hollande declared that France is at war with ISIL, my heart sank further: News of the French bombings in Syria, American governors denying asylum to Syrian refugees, bombings in Beirut, speeches of fear and hatred, of retribution, or when my 15 year old daughter said she is scared to go to another baseball game or anywhere large crowds gathered. How do I help my daughters make sense of all this? Of the world we live in, when I cannot make sense of it myself?

My muse wrote and reminded me to operate from a place of love, not fear. I was told that by spreading and sharing this love, I will touch those I encounter and in turn they will reach others. She told me to always hold love in my heart. She loves me and it is with love that we will navigate and operate. Love UNITES, love HEALS, love IS.

And it came to me! My family creates prayer flags on New Year’s Day and I want to share this ritual with my community. I am calling a red thread circle to create prayer flags on January 2 (Saturday) focusing on love, peace, and compassion. The circle is about giving our dreams, our prayers, our intentions a platform. It is about planting seeds of hope, peace, and love and visualizing or allowing the vibrations to permeate, to flow. More details on this red thread circle to come soon.

I also decided to give my muse a place to speak, under “My Musings”.           "Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that."

                                         ~ Martin Luther King Jr.

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